Tuesday, August 25, 2009 6:11 PM
What's really there ?
FYI , the above picture is hand-taken by my dearest brother . NON-edited .I had a weird dream last night . I dreamt about me getting real close to a girl whom i wished dearly to know . I know who's the girl , and the girl knows me . But we never talk . Its just a dream though , so never mind .
Recent happenings led me to think , whether what's there
REALLY there ?
Was it all one-sided ? Or a beautiful illusion ?
Alot of things that i kept tightly right at the corner of my mind exploded out all of a sudden .
I know i shouldn't rake up something that had happen a million years ago . But the feeling i supressed at that moment overwhelmed me today, entirely . Nobody's strong enough to resist help .
I felt so upset about it . I should have just forgotten about it but somethings are impossible to wash away . This may be just some annoying incident that is none of your business but it matters alot to me . Its a silly joke . But i can't deny how much it weighed - till now .
Being nice to your enemy is being cruel to yourself , one would say . But i just can't bring myself to doing the opposite . I rather be cruel to myself than having another enemy . You can't survive in this world with a whole lot of people chasing you with a chopper in the streets right ?
I don't want to weak and cry whenever there're problems lingering . I want to solve them and get over it . I'm don't want to be emotional nor annoying . I want to be strong .
Mentally , i'm never fourteen .
