I've heard people say that lives are filled with ups and downs . Well , these few days are seriously my down period . I really can understand why adults keep asking us not to fall into a relationship at such a young age . It really kills , hurtfully . Well , but luckily i'm not dead . And i won't let it kill me . If not i'd have an innocent death . So many things happen in just an instance , but in that instance i saw many things , not to say understand them . I finally saw the great difference between friends and acquaintances . I also saw the meaning of betrayal and loyalty . I understand that whatever you do for someone and thought that was the best for him/her , it may end up otherwise . Thats how mothers felt when their kids yell at them for doing something that they thought is good for them . They suffered disappointment and grief . Lastly , i can't believe that one would be happy after forced to do something that would hurt him/herself . This is so not logical .
Oh well , maybe love life isn't suitable for me now . That day came earlier then expected . No one's to blame . If the blame has to be on someone , then it would be on me . I'm going to take care of "blame" and treat it as my friend . Haha ! Its mine okay people !
Right , enough of crappy things .
Today , i had my very first shooting competition in safra . Got lots of tips and advices from James Ng , my senior . They really came in handy . Thanks alot ! I'm chatting with him anyway . Heeee . And thanks all seniors who helped me for this competition expecially Eliz and Shan ! Thanks Coach zhang for giving me the tip before the comp ! Thanks jojo for the notes ! And thanks all friends for your good luck wishes ! LOVE YOU ALL !
Oh ya , haha . Havn't say my results yet . I shot 365 ! WOooo . But i know i can do better . And i want to do much much better ! Must aim for NYO ! (grins)
Shit , almost forgot . Happy 14th birthday to Karwei and Valerie ! I'm still waiting for mine ! ;D
Finally i can sleep peacefully tonight , i hope ..
Labels: crisis, non-happyending