Saturday, August 16, 2008 11:28 PM
To post is strictly for Yuwen only ;Only kaypohs can read [:-
Wen , you said you need some space right ? Okay , i will give you . I will give you all you want okay .
Till the day you say dat your life feels empty .
Yes , ok , i know you gave in to me .
But , in this case , you were like saying you'll give a cookie but you're still holding tight on it and you're repeating that you'll give me that cookie .
So , what's the point ?
& if you're with your other friends i'll just stand there and pretend i did not see you ok .
I wont have such extreme reactions .
You can say that i dont take friendship seriously but ,
IF THAT IS SO , then explain to me why i can last a friendship of 2years with joan and 7years with siaohan and still lasting on ?
Seriously , i have no such problems with them know .
And all the friends i know wont snatch friends away ok .
Ya , and you think only you sad ar . You thought i was not sad because i'm not in tears ?
Okay , then i tell you .
You rmb about 3 months back , i cried once ?
Its because of you know . I dont cry often know . But that day i suddenly broke down .
Yar , you may think that its so long wayyyy back , So what right ?
Actually , so what lo ?
Haish .
And i know you dont really like ____ so if i ask you to talk tgt it will be a very awkward scene .
That's why i dont know how to ask you to come and you were like so angry at me .
And if you want to compare who is more hurt than okay , i agree , i hurt you more .
But do you know its so hard and suffocating to hold on to a friendship while trying to save another and scared of losing the other one ?
Im trying not to offend anyone and to break friendship with anyone .
Ok , you say that you dont have many friends .
But have you tried to make more ? I cant bring friends to you only you can make friends with others .
& you say that ____ is trying to snatch me away from you but why cant you just get along with her ?
I mean its just instead of hating her and dislike her why cant you just try to make friends and maybe she will like you even more ?
And yes , i indeed feel happier with them .
Cause' you on the surface are wanting me to be with you and on the other side , i feel that you are trying to make me alone .
You pull me towards you without _____ they all , and then you go with nina , alfiah etc .
Im not jealous know .
Its like you're pulling me with you into a boat and then you left with alfiah etc . in the middleway on another boat and leaving me floating alone in the ocean .
I dont feel happy in the class know .
In fact , i feel happier with the ahpui basterd , wilson ljy & sam etcetc .
Atleast i feel easy with them .
You know , i think that whatever i do just cant make you happy and i feel that its so hard to please you .
You're like happier with nina , alfiah etc they all .
Although i know you all have problems too but , looks like only they will support you better .
You know me too have alot of problems know.
Example , sheryl .
She has some problems with her seniors and basterd jeremy & i are trying to help her .
OK la . If you think that im not treating you better than forget it ok .
I feel so tired alrdy .
You with nina they all . I know you feel happier .
Just let me ROT !
CAUSE I LOVE ROTTING AND I THINK IT DOES WELL FOR YOU AND ME OKAY !THIS IS ALL I CAN GIVE YOU , and if its not enough ,
take my life then .
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[ It hurts more to see someone getting hurt because someone else got hurt . ]
