Thursday, August 7, 2008 12:01 AM
Friendship crisis
Have you ever feel so suffocated & that you need space and time to breathe ?Well , i have .You may think this is just a normal post & that i'm trying to blog out Emo things cause i could not sleep .But seriously , i dont know who to turn to know .Seniors ? Best friends ? What ?-Sigh- , i know after this post maybe some would ask what happened but seriously , all are just asking out of concern , iknow , but so what if i tell you'all ?Only burden to another one .Days of dilemma & confusion overwhelms me everyday in SCHOOL .Everyone is wearing a mask trying to hide their flaws and trys to project their bestest side .Thats how people got deceived , hurtfully .Despite trying to make everybody happy , instead , got hurt every second they got happier .SO what they are trying to make you smile ? AnD so what if you really smiled ? Didnt they even asked you what you really wanted ? They thought what they did were supposed to make you smile and you are also SUPPOSED to smile . They thought that they were doing the right thing on their point of view .SO what ley ?Fake a smile loh . (FCUK?)Then if dont smile ley ? Give one tight slap loh .Then DAO you for 1hour .-,-This really sucks . No matter how hard i tried , how much i believed , its still never enough .You yell at me of not being a 24/7 friend , you dao me cause you were angry at another person , you chided me of not being there when you though i should be at that moment of time , and yet you can still smile and say that you are my best friend ..I know you've been trying hard to change , okahy , i saw it .But then still , if everything goes they way you wanted it to go ,You happy , then everybody happy .Then you not happy , everybody emo .But have you ever noticed that i've never told you my troubles ?Like i have no troubles like that .What loh .Because i know how to handle it know .And i know the best way out .Means everybody wins and i lose .then everybody happy because i've lost and they won .Is winning your oxygen ?Didnt win then the Earth crashes /=I dont mind losing know , cause happy jiu hao .(:But then ley , i also human know .Me have emotions and feelings too .Only my 2yr de laopo knows me well .But then i also didnt tell her my troubles .Cause i think is also pointless mey .I dont like relying on people .Tell ler also pass the burden to one more person .eeee , dont want my laopo to so sadsad .(:Tsktsk .Aiyah , to summarise this , everybody happy jiu HAO ! (:
